Mixed Emotions

The date for our departure is drawing nearer. Routes are being finalized, purchases are being made, and I am hurtling through the entire gamut of emotions. Am I really going to wave a cheery goodbye to Step Doug in New Jersey and then spend the next two months with little substantial human contact? Will I be consumed with loneliness? Or terrified navigating unknown roads and adventures entirely on my own and miles from home? Am I insane to quit my job and spend two months with no income, only outgo? Only to return to start my employment search from ground zero? Will I be bored from the long stretches of solo driving? Or overwhelmed by all the new experiences? I have been hesitant to tell too many people about my plans, partially for fear I’ll chicken out and look silly, and partially for fear they’ll think I’m crazy. Or shoot it down. But more than anything I am excited about this new chapter in my life. To go and see and experience so many things I have always dreamed of or only recently discovered. To fend for myself in the great outdoors. And to build some amazing memories with my best friend.

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4 thoughts on “Mixed Emotions

  1. I’m so excited for you!!! Yes, it’s crazy and wonderful and you’ll be lonely and happy and energized and afraid and all of it will be worth it. I’m so proud of you for doing what you want to do!!

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  2. Eden you are not bonkers at all. It will be the experience of a lifetime. As for starting employment from ground zero, I beg to differ your skill set will only be improved by the planning, the managing of finances and dealing with the inevitable unexpected. Both Millie and I look forward to reading about your adventures. Love and hugs Louise

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  3. Oh how I wish I had your courage. You are not alone we are all going to experience this with you. If you feel alone email or tweet one of yoyr followers you will get a huge responsr. And of course how can you be alone with the lovely Annie with you. All the best from Scotland

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